Am i seeing for the very first time.....

To my baby:

Seeing for the very first time

Bebe Winans

Is this your smile

Or is that sunlight through the trees

Was that your sigh

Or just a gentle breeze

Is this your voice

Rolling waves upon the sea

Is this a dream

Or can it be

That I'm seeing for the very first time

The rustling leaves

That bring your laughter all around

The dancing wind

Feet barely touching down

Is this a song

Or nature's perfect melody

Is this a dream
Or can it be
That I'm seeing for the very first time

Now is that my heart

Was that thunder with this rain

Was that a spark

Did you touch me once again

Are those my eyes

Or are you looking back at me

Is this a miracle

Can it be true

That its possible to make one heart of two

It's not a dream

I do believe,

I do believe

That I'm seeing for the very first

Seeing for the very first.......

Seeing for the very first time.

Last night my husband and i experienced another breath taking moment. I'm not quite sure what it was exactly... maybe an elbow, or a knee... it could have been the heel of his foot, or it could have been his hand... Our baby showed us a little taste of what its going to be like to touch him... and see him... for the very first time. It was so small... just a little tiny bump. It felt so real- it felt so fragile.. being able to brush our hands over the little bump that poked out of my tummy for about 30 seconds... felt like an hour. It seemed like everything was moving in slow motion. I felt an uncomfortable feeling on the side of my belly and just naturally just rubbed it. I kind of jumped when i realized that there was something actually there. I ran over to my husband as fast as i could and together we felt the little protruding whatever it was... Smiling... laughing... crying... really feeling as if we are seeing for the very first time...

What an amazing little miracle that is growing inside. Jayden is constantly moving around these days. This was the first time that he actually gave us a visual. I just wish i could identify what it was exactly. I guess that will come with time.

It is so hard to imagine that in 3 months, our lives are going to be completely changed. It is a little nerve racking at times, but with every passing day, with every smile that stretches across David's face from ear to ear, and with every little kick that Jayden gives me as a reminder that he can hardly wait to see me too....my desire to meet this little one grows stronger...

On the day he is born, i know, i will be seeing for the very first time...

How literal will my baby be?

Little Johnny and his family were having Sunday dinner at his Grandmother's house. Everyone was seated around the table as the food was being served. When Little Johnny received his plate, he started eating right away. 'Johnny! Please wait until we say our prayer.' said his mother. 'I don't need to,' the boy replied. 'Of course, you do,' his mother insisted. 'We always say a prayer before eating at our house.' 'That's at our house,' Johnny explained. 'But this is Grandma's house, and she knows how to cook!

Oh the things i remember about Grandma's cookin'. My favorite was and will always be potato soup with cornbread and extra pepper. I ate and ate and ate until my grandparents told me it was coming out my ears. Another one of my favorites was grandma's homemade lemon meringue pie. The crust was the best part!

A Sunday school teacher asked, 'Johnny, do you think Noah did a lot of fishing when he was on the Ark?' 'No,' replied Johnny. 'How could he, with just two worms.'

P.S.

I just wanted to let you all know that i am traveling to San Diego today and will be there thru Saturday evening on business. I may not be posting as much. I will have a laptop, but there is no guarantee that i will be able to find Wifi.

oh ya, and i will be posting pics of me and my belly bump... just have patience!

Comic of the Day!!!!

Ok so the comic that i had up here was great but the people i got it from or not so great. let me try to explain the comic to you.. ok so there was this guy walking down the street with a picket sign that says "Time For A Change!" and then this mom comes walking down the street and has a baby in a stroller.. and the baby says: "Is it really that noticeable?" So, ya. its funnier if you see it

HAHAHAH! I just had to post this. This is the best comic i have seen in awhile. Now i'm sure most of you know that i can't stand politics, but recently thats all i have been hearing. "We want change!" Well can someone please tell me what those changes are going to be because i'm not hearing much of anything. Actually dont tell me... i dont want to know.

God only knows what this poor baby is going to live through. Did you know that its possible that Jayden could live until the year "2089" or even longer? Just imagine what can happen in another 80 years. We think our world is crazy now?

What happened to those "good ol' days"? I love hearing my Papa tell me about those times. Things seemed so much easier than they are today. Ya, they had to work really hard to keep food on their table, but they were happy. They didnt have cell phones, ipods, computers, internet, or email. Dont get me wrong- i am very thankful for technology. But sometimes i wonder how life might be if we didnt have the luxury of a split second communication device. Think of all the crazy things invented in 2008. Here is one that i think you may not have heard of:

The Nokia Mobile Smelephone, these phones release an aroma rather than a ring when an incoming call is received. While the available fragrances sound pleasant enough (strawberry, citrus, mountain rain, meadow dew, discarded stem cells and urban blight) the smell can be sometimes overpowering and if the phone is within 2 feet of the person's eyes when an incoming call is received the eyes will temporarily burn, water and swell.

Hmm... i wonder.... what else might be invented by the time Jayden is 16?

The Cutest Kid On The Block

I spend a lot of time day dreaming about what my baby is going to look like. I want to know if he will have dark brown almost black hair (like daddy or me) or if he will have red hair (like some of davids family members, or my mom)? Will he have dark eyes? or will he have green eyes? Will he have piano fingers? Will he have long toes? Will he have dimples? Will he have big lips or small lips? Will he have distinct eyebrows? will he be short? (probably) LOL Poor child doesnt have much of a choice there...

I know my baby is going to be the cutest thing i have ever seen.

OH THE JOYS OF THE KICKS

On Friday night, David got to feel the baby kick for the very first time. It was such a special moment. We were laying in bed and Jayden was being hyperactive as always. I havent been able to feel him on the outside yet with my own hands, so i thought well... why not just have david try to feel what i'm feeling on the inside. So here we are laying side by side... Silent. I dont know what us talking had to do with anything, but we didnt say a word. We laid there in silence and i felt the baby move a couple of times and i kept saying, "did you feel that!" and he would say... "no"... its kind of funny sitting there waiting. He didnt really know what he was waiting for. So finally Jayden gave a big kick, and i didnt even have to ask that time. David's eyes lit up the room and he said "wow, how neat!"... and just a couple seconds later Jayden said hi again with another kick for daddy.

My eyes mist over writing this post. It wasnt even a year ago that the doctor informed me that i was infertile. The memory of him telling me that it would be impossible for me to conceive has faded with the reality of my little one moving inside and the dreams that i have of who Jayden Anthony Gonzales will one day become. I know i'm emotional because of pregnancy and all, but seeing the look on my husbands face as he felt his baby move for the very first time put a new found love in my heart for this man that God has blessed me with. The gratefulness to God for this little miracle bouncing around inside of me while i drive home from work is new everyday. I am so blessed...

Scrambled Eggs

I apologize for not posting on a normal basis. Last week was Youth Alive, and with all of my responsibilities, accessing a computer for even 5 minutes was luxury for me. My boss has also been out sick this week so my work has doubled. So here is my attempt at another post.

Very, Very Early this morning... i woke up to the smell of scrambled eggs. Well i thought it was scrambled eggs. I'm not sure if it was just my imagination or if it was a real smell. It was the strangest thing. i jolted up out of bed and started sniffing the room, like my baby Annie. I was convinced that someone was making scrambled eggs in my house and woke up my husband. Poor guy, rolled over and couldn't even open his eyes. I was very excited that someone was cooking scrambled eggs and proceeded to tell David how good that sounded to me right that second! i dont even know if he will remember this. He moaned, nodded his head, rolled over and started snoring again. Yes, he does snore.

I got up and started smelling around my room. i am almost positive it was my neighbors. Then it hit me! Oh no, if its my neighbors, that means that I'm not going to get any! I was so devastated i woke up my husband again and smacked him a couple times until he finally got mad enough to sit up and ask me in a very irritated manner, "WHAT?!?!" i proceeded to tell him that i thought i might have been having another craving and that I REALLLLY NEEDED scrambled eggs covered in ketchup. RIGHT NOW! He looked at me (or at least tried to focus his eyes) and just kept blankly staring at me. I wonder what was going through his head.... I rambled for another 2 or 3 minutes then very nicely asked if he would get up and make me some scrambled eggs covered in ketchup while i got ready for work.

He then informed me that we didn't have any eggs. Talk about devastation. I can't even put my feelings into words...

What a great way to start my morning. I'm still smelling eggs right now...

This is just terrible.

I finally did it!

Ok everyone... i have finally registered. I had so much fun doing it with my mommy this weekend. i think we were in the store for over 2 hours scanning everything. It was a blast! You can view all of my items at http://www.babiesrus.com/. Just type in my first and last name into the Find Registry field. The only bummer is, we went around scanning a ton of outfits that i fell in love with, but they don't show the pictures of the outfits on my registry. I don't know what to do about that... but they are cute outfits! I hope you enjoy looking at my registry as much as i enjoyed putting it all together. David and i are so excited! Going through the store together picking out cribs, bedding, diapers and stuff like that... was such a special moment for us. It was such a surreal experience. Thank you once again for sharing in our joy.

Breannna and David