Oh so much fun!!!

Mommy's Little Man

Oh my goodness what a day! We have been doing so good! Jayden and I will be going home tomorrow morning. What a way to start the New Year!! I never knew i could take so many pictures of one baby. He is so beautiful, so handsome, and so sweet.

Here are some more pictures. Thank you so much for sharing in our joy. And thank you to all of you who stopped by to say hello.

Update. My little bundle of joy

Hi everyone!! The day that i have been waiting for forever has finally come! Here i am sitting in the hospital typing to you all with tears of joy. My precious little bundle of joy is here with me and he is the most precious thing i have ever seen in my life. There is such a love i have-- for this baby-- i honestly cannot put this kind of love into words here.

He is gorgeous! He has chubby, chubby cheeks and the most adorable eyes.

I went into labor on Saturday evening around 8pm. By 4PM Sunday labor was still awful. Every 2-4 minutes i was contracting and nothing was happening. I was dialated to a 1 and Jayden wasn't dropping at all. He was so big he was stuck!

So around 6:25pm little Jayden entered this world by C-section.

I'm feeling great except for the fact that i have a cold and every time i cough it feels like i'm ripping my stitches out. pray for me that God will give me the strength i need to take care of this little man.

I will post again... not sure when so enjoy these pictures.

Love, Breanna, David, and Jayden

Jayden Has Arrived!!!!!

Jayden Anthony Gonzales has finally arrived, last night, December 28, 2008 at 6:25P.M.
He weighed 9lbs. 5oz. and is 20 1/2 inches long! Breanna will be updating her blog more when she gets to take the little guy home! Enjoy...
See my Mommy's page for more pics!

December 19th....

David Anthony Gonzales, i love you with all my heart. Thank you for being the best husband a woman could ever have. You mean the world to me. Thank you for all of the 3AM 7-eleven runs... and for washing the dishes when my feet swell, and folding the towels, putting away the groceries, making dinner, and rubbing my back when i just can't take the pain anymore... You have been amazing this whole entire pregnancy... even when i cried and yelled at you... you were still amazing... all that emotional stuff was not really you...

I know you are going to be the best daddy Jayden could ever have. I know that you will raise him up in the Apostolic faith that we both cherish. I know that you will teach Jayden how to pray, and how to fall in love with Jesus more and more everyday.

I cannot thank you enough. I love you.

(i love you even when you don't cooperate while taking pictures...)

Well a huge percentage of people voted that today would be the day... Well i do have another 10 hours or so... so someone better start praying... Real Hard!

I am miserable.

So here is an update from my last doctor appointment.

My doctor did the final measurements to tell me how big my baby will probably be. Well Jayden is measuring to be over 7 and a half pounds as of Wednesday. My doctor would like me to try to go into labor and have the baby naturally up until December 30th... anything after that will be a scheduled c-section. My doctor said the baby will be way too big to deliver naturally in 2 weeks, and he doesn't want to risk my life or Jayden's life...

So please keep me in your prayers... and pray for Jayden too... if he is born a couple weeks early we need to pray that his lungs are completely developed.

Thank you all for keeping up with my blog.. Merry Christmas to all... and to all a good night... cuz i certainly ain't gettin' sleep anymore...

Much love,

David, Breanna, and Jayden

We had a blast this weekend!!!

This last Saturday, my mommy and my sissy came and visited me. My mom brought me my birthday present (a glider with an ottoman) and took me and my honey out for lunch.. Then we went to the Americana At Brand (which i love, by the way) its just like Disneyland right down the street (except it doesnt have rides... except for the trolley :)

Here are some pics of our little outing. (can you see my outty?) LOL

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!!

WHOAH- thats all i hafta say

(NOPE, she is no longer available for comment... bummer deal for all of you guys who just wish you could speak with her... oh well....you snooze, you lose... you'll learn someday! LOL)

Yes, i was a good girl (just cuz mom was there) and i got myself a wheelchair!

Pre-Term Labor

Well Folks,

It happened again. I went into full on labor Tuesday night (December 2nd). It was awful, to say the least... and after 4 and a half hours of having OFF THE CHART contractions every 5-6 minutes... the doctor finally gave me a powerful shot and a powerful pill to make me stop. Why they didn't do that when i first got there is beyond my comprehension...

I dont want to talk about it.

It hurt, but not as bad as i expected. I was begging for an epidural though.... HA... i wasn't even dialated. Ask my mom, i am a druggie!

I love you all so much and i'm not sure how much more posting i'm going to be able to do. i will definitely have someone post as soon as this little guy gets here so stay tuned for more...

Oh yeah- a week from this Thursday- my doc is gonna let me go off all my medications and just let little Jayden get here whenever he feels like it...

More pictures of my baby shower....

The calm before the storm...
all my friends..

more friends... and sheramy announcing a game..

me and my sissy opening gifts.. that took over an hour..

all of my family (on my mom and dads side)

Grandma (Martha) and Auntie Leanna

oooo... baby moved...

Little Jake.. Kristy... and Auntie Roxanne, luv ya!

Getting ready to eat Grandma's spaghetti with homemade sauce...

Here comes the first game... this was hilarious!

Yep, who could drink the fastest and the mostest out of a baby bottle?

Dixie!!!

Grandma Martha gave up and started squirting everybody...

We had a blast!!! Thank you EVERYONE for making it so much fun :)

Shower #1..

Me and My Little Man...

Me and my Sissy...
Me and Grandpa and Grandma Smith

I had so much fun at my first shower. Jayden got so many things! It took forever to sort through all the clothes, bibs, washcloths, hats, shoes, socks... oh my! Thank goodness i had help. My MIL and SIL and my Husband and Bekki and my next door neighbor Anne helped me sort everything into different piles- empty out my drawers, organize all my junk and then helped me set up his pack n play and his co-sleeper. I think we almost got everything done. Talk about exhausting... i have been fight this awful flu and because i'm prego, the doc wont let me take anything!! i have a cough syrup that i can take (only when its absolutely necessary)...

I stole the pics on here from my Mommy's blog cuz she hasn't sent me any yet.... i'm sure i'll post more soon. I will be heading out of town to go see all my family for thanksgiving. This year is going to be extra special. Both me and David will be with both sets of parents this year! YEAH! His family is coming to AG to have Thanksgiving with my family!!! We are so excited that we all get to be together this year.

Jayden is already dreaming of the yummy food he will be eating... (oh ya.. i meant i'm dreaming....) Turkey, potatoes, yams, stuffing, pecan and pumpkin pie, green bean casseroles, and Papa's famous ham... mmmmmmmmmmmm........ (you are making that ham right papa?) THE BABY IS REQUESTING IT!!!!! (oh ya, and don't forget... the BX at 4AM) LOLOL

Well ya'll have a wonderful Thanksgiving. I might do another post before then, but just in case i dont... HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!!!

I have so much to be thankful for this year...

House Arrest...

Thank you Auntie for this comic! Its my new favorite!


Well if ya'll have been wonderin' where i disappeared to... here is a simple explanation. I have been in bed. Yep, just as easy as that...

I have gone into pre-term labor twice now, and the doctor has given me strict instructions (along with some medication). I am only allowed out of bed for 4 hours per day. And during those 4 hours, the last thing i want to do is sit down at a computer and type.. (no offense). Its amazing what you can get done in 4 hours. I'm like a mad woman!

Most of you understand that i am not a person who typically sits still. I am always busy doing something- ANYTHING- for that matter! Laying in bed for 20 hours per day has really been hard for me. I am thankful that this pregnancy has been like a piece of cake up until now.

Now i just have to lay down and relax until its time for Jayden to come. The doctor said the way that things are looking right now- i could have the baby in 4 to 6 weeks. In 6 weeks, Jayden would be considered full term anyways, so its not that big of a deal- THANK YOU JESUS!

Please keep me in your prayers.. and pray for my dear husband... you have no idea what its like to be around me when i have been in bed all day. I'm a pretty awful, miserable person...

Hey, you wouldn't like doing this either- so don't judge!

New Found Cravings...

One of my many new found craving has been Macaroni and Cheese... YUMMMY! I woke up at 5:30 am Sunday morning and HAD TO HAVE a box of mac and cheese. OMW we didnt have any in the house and my darling husband got up and went to 7-eleven and bought me 2 boxes.... isnt he lovely? I wont tell you how much that costed....

I have no idea why my cravings have just started... its kind of funny really. I havent really had any craving except hot dogs... iced tea... coke... and huge salads... but thats not really normal.

so let me give you just a little taste of what i have been eating these past few days... i promise, i have at least gained 10 pounds in the last 3 days.

i have been eating Costco rolls, famous amos chocolate chip cookies, ben and jerrys strawberry cheescake icecream, plate-fulls of cake, potato and cheese burritos smothered in tapatio sauce, frosted flakes (with extra sugar), cheesy doritos, and grape popsicles...

And i usually eat all 7 of those things in one meal.... oh this is so embarrassing! But supposedly confession is good for the soul...

Ok so here is whats going on with me besides the crazy cravings:

i went to the doctor on Friday because i wasn't feeling to good and my doctor was a tad bit worried about a few symptoms that i was having... no, i will not discuss these symptoms on the Internet... except for one big thing: CONTRACTIONS

Contractions are not a good thing at 29 weeks so my doctor asked to see me immediately. He pretty much told me that my body was going into early labor and that it wasn't time for that yet... DUH? so he put me on this medication to keep me from going into labor, sent me home and told me that i am on bed rest until he releases me... hopefully, that will be tomorrow around 3:30 pm... i'll keep everyone posted.

So much for bed rest. I have been the most miserable patient EVER! i have been moody, depressed, anxious, angry, etc... you name it i was it!

And my back hurts from laying around all day.... Ok so yes i do have a good reason to be doing this... i have to take care of my little man... he is way too tiny right now..

So for all of you wondering... my doctor said it could just be another 6 weeks before Jayden gets here! YEAH!

Anyone have any advice on how to get ready for a CHILD! I'm panicking here folks! 6 weeks is not that long... even 8-10 weeks is not that long! HELP! HE's COMING!

The meaning of a name...

Pastor White's sermon last night- i can't even come up with the word's to describe it. There are sermon's that change lives, alter paths, and show us new light... Last night's sermon was one of those.

How many times have i heard the story of Jacob and Esau? How many times have i heard about Jacob's name change? I grew up in this Apostolic faith- its all i know. I have heard the story more times than i could ever recount, but last night- i learned something so new and so real- i will never forget this...

I will not even attempt to re-preach Pastor's sermon, but i would like to tell you of a few things that stuck out to me so vividly last night:

I learned what puts us on God's Hate List.
I learned what the Bible meant when it talked about Esau being a profane man: Profane: not having a relationship with God
I learned how to NOT get on God's Hate List: get a real relationship with God
I learned what the word Jacob really meant.- "circumventor"
I learned that Jacob was always trying to get around God's way of doing things.
I learned that God did not change his name to "Israel" until he realized that God is "the boss".

It amazes me how many times i have prayed, God, please just as long as my baby is healthy.. thats all i ask...

But truly, as Pastor White taught last night, we as Parent-to-be should be praying, God, let this baby have a relationship with you... as long as he makes it to Heaven, Lord, thats all that really matters to me...

The name Jayden is the variant of the Hebrew name, Jadon. It means: "Jehovah has heard."

God heard my prayer, He gave me a son. God heard my prayer, my son is so far alive and well and healthy...

Now I pray that God will hear this prayer for my little boy- Lord, let my son have a close relationship with you...

Baby Shower #1 Invitations

Thank you Mommy! I love them!

I'M NOT LISTENING....

Well today was my 28 week checkup. My doctor informed me that if i didn't start taking 3 hours out of my daily routine to put my feet up and rest, then i would have the baby in 6-8 weeks. That doesn't sound too bad actually. What did sound bad though is that he threatened bed rest if i do not comply. Hmm... I told him - NOT ON MY LIFE!

I mean, just because I'm in my 7th month doesn't really mean that i have to STOP, right? Yes i have been cramping and I've been having some serious issues with braxton hicks, but I'm doing ok... I don't know if i can put aside 3 hours to rest. Who does that!?

Good grief. I would rather go, go, go and have the baby in 6-8 weeks. Doesn't that sound like a better idea?

25 Great things about being pregnant!

1. You're guaranteed to stop traffic whenever you cross the street.

2. People look at your stomach and can't help smiling, as if the mere thought of your being pregnant has actually made their day a little bit brighter.

3. You can eat a whole pint of chocolate-chunk ice cream and not feel guilty. Every night.

4. You can -- no, you must! --take naps. Lots of them.

5. Getting to name another human being.

6. Watching your husband turn into a father when he kisses your belly good night, reads to the baby in utero, or stays up until 3:00 a.m. putting the crib together -- just in case the baby decides to come eight weeks early.

7. This had to be edited. LOLOL

8. Buying a bathing suit. It's not about hiding your flaws; it's about flaunting your belly.

9. Those wild, intense, amazing pregnancy dreams in which every remote person from your past makes some sort of appearance. None of these dreams can even begin to be analyzed or understood.

10. The amazing anticipation. It's like all your previous birthdays and holidays rolled into one.

11. Imagining the possibilities.

12. More personal space! And you have no qualms about claiming it.

13. You eat healthier, drink more water, and carefully read ingredient labels. Suddenly, it matters more to you what you put in your body.

14. In the middle of a boring meeting at work or a meaningless argument, you feel your baby squirming inside you and the sensation takes you away. It's your own secret communication.

15. Getting to hear the swish swish swish of your baby's heartbeat on the Doppler.

16. Playing "Guess the part sticking out," usually at bedtime, when your baby starts moving furniture around or whatever it is he does in there.

17. The extra attention you get from everyone -- your husband gives you more foot rubs, and your friends call to check in more often. Neighbors offer to help; coworkers volunteer to get lunch for you; little presents (a bottle of water, an afternoon snack) mysteriously show up on your desk.

18. The pregnancy beauty package: thick, silky hair; long, strong nails; beautiful skin.

19. Getting to skip to the front of the line in public rest rooms.

20. Shopping for a person you haven't met yet: tiny clothes, all-new furniture, and adorable room decorations.

21. Dreaming about the first time someone calls you "Mommy" and the first time you hear someone call your husband "Daddy."

22. Baby showers! They remind you how special your friends and family think you are.

23. A continuous sense of accomplishment. You can answer "What did you do today?" with cool things like "I made ears" or simply "I'm making a person. What did you do?"

24. Spending immeasurable amounts of time trying to remember all those nursery rhymes, children's songs, and lullabies.

25. Knowing that all the bad stuff -- the heartburn, swollen ankles, backaches, and the rest -- doesn't last forever. And that in the end, it's all worth it.

28 Weeks already?

Is it just me, or has time really been flying by? I can't believe i only have 12 weeks left. My little man is fastly developing all he needs to survive.

The fist pic was taken in July and the next pic was taken today! WOW!

Ok now on to my depressing but very much needed post: (sorry the spacing messed up on me)

For all of you who know me, i am not a political junky. And just recently, i have come to ABHOR politics. I really honestly cannot believe the choices we have this election for presidents. It really is a bummer. So today's post is about a political issue near and dear to my heart... Proposition 4...

Abortion by definition: An abortion is the termination of a pregnancy by the removal or expulsion of an embryo or fetus from the uterus, resulting in or caused by its death.

I know, i know.. so morbid.. but i feel like i must.

I am 28 weeks pregnant. My baby weighs close to 3 pounds and he is almost 15 inches long from head to toe. Get out a yardstick and see exactly how long that is... that is longer than a loaf of bread. He is getting to be a big boy. He is sleeping and waking at regular intervals, he can open and close his eyes, and he is even starting to have dreams...

Did you know that this Wednesday, i could go into my doctor's appointment and tell them that i would like to terminate my pregnancy and that would not be a problem?

Roe v. Wade centrally held that a mother may abort her pregnancy for any reason, up until the "point at which the fetus becomes ‘viable.’" The Court defined viable as being potentially able to live outside the mother's womb, albeit with artificial aid. Viability usually occurs at about seven months (28 weeks) but may occur earlier, even at 24 weeks."

Babies born at 28 weeks have a hard time breathing on their own. Usually they are hooked up to machines for 2 or 3 months until their lungs completely develop. There is a GREAT possibility that my doctor would say that the "fetus" is not viable (meaning that he couldn't survive outside the womb without help) and he could go ahead and tell me that i could get an abortion....

Writing this post makes me sick to my stomach. To think that young girls- like 12 and 13 years of age can go in to a clinic and abort their babies up until 28 weeks is just disgusting. And did you know that they don't even have to get permission from their parents?

If you vote yes on Prop 4- Minors are required to have a waiting period and parental notification before terminating their pregnancies.

Pastor White said its hardly anything... but it is something... I urge you to vote YES on Prop 4

There are many other Jayden's out there that were conceived- not of their choosing... Why should they have to feel the sting of a needle and shake and twitch out of control until they pass on from their short life. Its not fair... its not right....

I must vote my conscience. How about you?

Pacifier or No Pacifier???

So when do we make decisions like: do we give Jayden a pacifier? at what age do i introduce a bottle? do i introduce a bottle? do i just go from breastfeeding to a sippy cup? When do i give him table food?

I have heard that these decisions just "come to you". Hmm... I'm not too sure about that... So what are the pros and cons of a pacifier. I have heard that it damages their teeth and they grow up with buck teeth and they drool everywhere and that it will make them talk funny. I would appreciate any insight you all might provide.

I personally do not have any feelings against using the pacifier. i used one (i think) and i know several children who have. they seem like they talk just fine.

I just don't want my baby to get attached to it and then not want to give it up. My biggest fear is that he will scream and cry for two weeks because mommy won't give him his pacifier....

What do you think?

West Coast Conference Worries

I AM RESORTING TO THE GLORIFIED MUU MUU!!!

What is a muu muu? A muu muu is a loose dress of Hawaiian origin that hangs from the shoulder. Muʻumuʻu are also popular as maternity gowns and with obese people because they do not restrict the waist.

I have really been worrying for a long time about what to wear to WCC. Poor me... When i get ready for church David looks at me and says, "Babe, isn't that a little tight?" I will spare you my response.

I do have a couple of outfits that i can possibly wear. Well i have more than a couple.. i guess i should say i have a few, but they are getting snug on my belly and i cannot tell you how annoying it is. Sometimes you feel like you can't breath because its so tight. UGH! So if there is anyone out there that would be willing to donate a MUU MUU for my cause, please email me pictures first. I'm looking for one that is all black- maybe even red to spice things up a little.. I could always add a flower somewhere on the hideous thing and find some really cute shoes...

Otherwise, i think i will just get one made. I already have the pattern picked out.